Parenthood

Parenting use to feel like a chore to me. I felt like I wasn’t the best all the time, and sometimes social media can depict people being these awesome parents, making me feel like I wasn’t good enough.

I used to be upset that I was a single parent and often questioned how do people enjoy parenting. It didn’t feel enjoyable. I often felt bad for not enjoying parenting all the time. Everyone thought I was a great mom. I didn’t feel good enough, and I felt like my kids deserved more.

But let’s be real for a minute. Just like anything that’s worth having, it can be hard work especially when you’re doing it alone. Like the famous saying, there’s no handbook to this parenting thing. Kids are a blessing, and in order to change how I felt, I had to change my ways and how I thought. I love my kids more than life itself, but I also had to understand I had my daughter when I was still a kid myself. I was still learning. I didn’t have this mommy thing figured out. I wasn’t able to give from a place of fullness because I wasn’t full.

Fast forward, as I started doing the work in me and healing from certain things, I began to look at life and parenting a little different. I wanted to create healthier relationships with my kids. I wanted to break generational curses. We sometimes unconsciously, pick up habits from our parents, and it can easily spill over onto our kids.

I was a great mom, I just had to give myself grace for my mistakes. I wasn’t perfect, but I was growing. I love being a mom, and I enjoy the times we spend together! I had to grow and learn more about me to be better for them. I had to understand some of the poor decisions I made and own it. I had to look at parenting as a blessing and not a job.

When I changed my perspective, I changed my feelings and perception of parenthood. I thank God for my growth and the grace he has given me. Because of my mistakes, I am able to grow and become the best mom to my kids!